Thirty three.

I am going to be 33 in another week. 30th of November. Time sure flies. My 3rd birthday in the jungle of Kalimantan, Indonesia. Just another day for me, maybe a spike of wall messages on my Facebook and mentions on Twitter. Calls and text messages? Nah people don’t do that anymore. So 33 is middle age or what? Just in case I need a reason to blame all the stupid things I did or going to do on mid-life crisis.

Funny sometimes I feel like I have a lot of things to write about but when I get to it, nothing seems to come out. You need to keep on writing to keep it flowing I guess. Even when you are just writing craps and not making any sense.  Nowadays everything is in bite size, (or it is bit size? See,  my grammar also gone into the drain) we hardly can express ourselves more than few lines of words.

I had the chance to be an interviewer last Monday.  It was for the hiring of management trainees in preparing of the upcoming oil mill. I was one of the 3 panel interviewer. About 16 candidates, all fresh graduates registered for the sessions and we interviewed them in a group of 4 persons. This was actually the first time I sat as an interviewer in a formal interview session. I must say I was impressed with the quality of the fresh graduates who came for the interview. Almost all of them dressed impeccably for it and shown great confidence in expressing themselves and communicating throughout the session. The common ‘theme’ that I got was for them to be given a chance at the job. None of them talked or brought up the issue of salary or benefits even when the session was open for questions to them. I could feel their passion and sincerity, have no choice but accepting them for their infectious enthusiasm and eagerness to prove themselves. Just so long as they are given the chance to do so. We concluded the session after shortlisted ten of them, eight males and two females.

I wonder if I did as good when I started out as a fresh graduate. But I certainly grateful for the opportunity given to start as a junior engineer with a consultancy firm in Puchong,  Selangor. I learnt so much in my short three and half year there.

We should not be too hard on the fresh graduates or young people looking for an opportunity to prove themselves. Some employers demand too much of fresh graduates, not realising they were young, inexperienced and naive once. Life is tough for anyone starting out. Give them a chance.

#hamiklanjiao Bersih?

Bersih is not about rhetoric.

What Bersih wants? You know. I know. A lot of people know. So it is very clear what Bersih wants.

Yes, Bersih wants a clean government. Bersih wants free and fair elections. Now, Bersih also wants to “save the economy.”

Why Bersih wants these? For the lack of vocabulary, #BetterNation heh.

And how to achieve all these? The specifics of it? May I direct you to some of the recommendations made by Bersih.

Bersih’s 10 institutional reforms:

1. Electoral reform
2. Making the Election Commission a constitutional party answerable to Parliament
3. Barring Prime Minister from simultaneously holding the office of Finance Minister
4. Parliamentary Reform
5. Making MACC (Malaysian Anti-Corruption Commission) answerable to Parliament
6. Separating Attorney General from the role of Public Prosecutor
7. Freedom of Information laws at Federal and State levels
8. Public declaration of Ministers and senior government servants’ assets
9. Repeal of/Amendments to draconian laws
10. Establishment of the Independent Police Complaints and Misconduct Commission (IPCMC)

If all these recommendations by Bersih are accepted and carried out, we should be able to achieve the two main “wants” mentioned earlier.  The 3rd “want” is just the after thought of the other two.

But, really HOW to get all these recommendations done? Through a rally? Heck, rally is just a process. A referendum of collective voices and opinions. To unite and organise people with shared objectives. Really, a rally is one of the simplest mean for common folks to voice out when every other avenue is either being closed down or being bullied into submission. I don’t think people are so naive to think just through rallies we would able to achieve all we want.

The “hows” to achieve all above although is clear and appears to be easy as spelt out in the recommendations, yet it is not quite clear (confusing, but yeah..) because the lack of any result to show. The journey is still a long and windy one, even for an optimist. Especially when this is going to be the 4th edition of Bersih since its first rally on 10th November 2007. What Bersih has really achieved since then? Indelible ink? More awareness? More noise? Really, to be honest not much in measurable results when you compare with the recommendations mentioned earlier.

But that is because we have a very stubborn and irresponsible government in place. Many promises were made, not many were met. All the structural changes recommended to achieve the main objective of Bersih – free and fair election yet to be made. Election Commission is still not reporting to the parliament. Political funding yet to be regulated. Delineation, very minimal to none have been carried out.

So we are stuck with the same old play. Yes it is silly to keep doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results. But what choice do we have for now? Do you have better and workable ideas? By all means, do it. Just don’t ridicule the persistence of Bersih supporters.

Because at this stage we are still only concern about “what.” And “why.”

Why we want a free and fair elections? So we hopefully will get a clean government  in the process when we have free and fair elections.

When we have a clean government, hopefully we will have a government that actually cares about the economy, that will listen to the voice of the people who put them in office and will implement measures and policies to the benefit of better economy and all.

How Bersih want to achieve all this? Well before that, does Bersih have a consistent and big enough voice to get things done as what they want? As what you and I want if we all support its objectives and fights. Because if we don’t have a consistent and big enough support to pressure the power to be to carry out the recommendations for all the things we want and why, no point we go talking about how now.

We must remember that Bersih is nothing but a pressure group with its main objective is for electoral reforms. Bersih is not the policy maker. To burden Bersih with all the how to get this and that done, shouldn’t these questions be asked to those who actually can make it happen? Ask the bloody government. Ask the bloody Election Commission. Ask the bloody Prime Minister who is having a chokehold over the whole cabinet and everything that moves (maybe some already dead, unfortunately) in this land.

There are so many things to do, a lot of it have to be in place before what we want can happen. Do we expect to have all the answers before we want to be a part of anything? You already knew the what and why. You want to know the how as well? Bloody hell, go play your game with your cheat codes and walk-through guide don’t you?

We want to save the economy, save the nation and shit, but before all that can happen, we need to restore the confidence and strengthen the institutions we entrust to safeguard our interests, foremost. And I have lost confidence in all the major institutions we entrusted to safeguard our interests, to do its sacred jobs because all are falling apart due to political interference. Look at how much power the Prime Minister and its office wield over the Attorney General’s Chamber, Malaysian  Royal Police, Anti Corruption Agency, judiciary, the submissive cabinet and by extension the parliament by holding some balls just enough to make it a lame duck parliament eg. balls of the Speaker of the House of Representatives?

What else common folk like me do other than voting come every rigged-election and making noise on the social media that soon-to-be-regulated-and-clamped-down? This government is making a mockery of its mandate day in day out, hell no I have not and will never give my vote to anyone to abuse the governance system, public institutions and ruin the nation like what is happening now.

So, you be damned if people want to walk the streets with the like minded to show their displeasure with the government and the system. The most important of all, to throw their support for Bersih in its fights for electoral reforms.

For free and fair elections.

For clean government.

For me, I just need these two reasons. How many do you need?




The uncle is directing passengers to the sections following their destinations. When you already have big signs just in front of the entrance. Yet there many who stopped and asked him which section to go.

Redundancy.  That is why some people never learn to pay extra attention.  What a waste of productivity. Then again, maybe this is a way to “create jobs”.

Good morning.

A short update

It is another week before Chinese New Year and I am already easing into it (read: lazy at work).

So it’s been 1 year and 9 months working in Indonesia for me. I am enjoying the experience so far. My life is pretty simple here. Morning going to work at 7am local time (an hour behind Malaysia) for  5 hours 12pm, break for 2 hours and then continue at 2pm for  another  3 hours. Saturday half day work. Usually after work go for  a short run or doing whatever to sweat myself out for about 30 mins, then have dinner and doing whatever  is there to be done to occupy myself until bedtime.

Before they put some limitation on the usage of internet, still can waste time on the internet. Now, just relying on the personal data plan, the speed is painfully slow. Just to send a tweet also taking forever. You would in such god forsaken place they’ll ensure certain things that keep you insane, like being connected to the family and friends via simple technology like the internet would be taken care well eh? Well, some people just don’t have any cow sense of anything. Limitation of internet service during working hours is fine to curb abuse, but after office hours? Playing kuku all night also sien lah.

I didn’t make time to write about my 2014 like I usually do at the starting of a new year, as a recap when I was still active blogging. Uh, people still use the word blogging nowadays?

My 2014 was uneventful, well with my time spent most in the jungle, what do you expect? Health wise I think I am doing good, I weigh and look better than the heydays. I manage to keep my weight at 72-74kg and ensuring that I don’t grow back my tummy. I have been monitoring my body stats, the usual glucose, cholesterol, uric acid and everything is pretty good, hope to keep that this year. Introduced more greens in my food intake and cut down on the processed food and carbs. Why the decision to be so health conscious of late? Well, one thing is that the results from all that makes me feel better about myself. I can’t wrap my head around the fact I am only 32 and feeling old and crap. Late 2012, at 88kg or so I was feeling like crap.

My late father passed away because of cancer in 2011, and my younger brother us unexpectedly in 2012 and I think those 2 events subconsciously influenced me to take a better care of myself on order to be able to take care of my loved ones and to enjoy better things in life.. No money can buy you good health, when it is too late. Career wise, I am doing better than before and that is progress so that’s all that matters. Most important thing is to be appreciated for the work you done and the your value as part of the organisation. And for rat racer like us, we measure that in simplest terms possible, money and support.

Oh ya, Adam is growing up fast. He is 17 months now and the last time I went back he was busy showing off his vocab. I hope to be able to spend more time with him. I am going back almost every 2 months, it is some sort of gentlemen deal between me and my boss. I will not give anyone a rat’s ass when it comes to my entitlements and personal time with my family. I have been down that road, and no amount of hard work or money worth the time spent with your loved ones. Money can find. If cannot find as much as you like it to be, then have to  live as much as it can provide you with.

But I have learned that one important thing in life is to have choice. You need to have choices in the things you do in order not to sell yourself short, so don’t limit your choices. Make and open yourself to more choices.

Till next time. Good night.

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