Life as it is..

I just came back from watching EPL football games with my friends. I’m still wide awake, so I thought that why don’t I pent down something for this God forsaken blog.

My life is really in a mess this month. Never before I have such amount of bad things happened to me in just a short period of my life. Yes, I’ve been through a lot in my short life span of 26 years especially the past 5 years, but this month takes the cake, really. Starting from early of the month until yesterday, I was constantly bombarded by unwanted incidents and encountered bad mojos.

Some of you may aware of the latest mishap happened to me. I was involved in a car accident yesterday. I went to friend’s place for his open house invitation yesterday then proceeded to Al Fresco to have some drinks with friends, then went back home. I was quite sleepy so I drove a little bit faster than usual. My mobile phone battery was dead as well. While making a turn at this one roundabout, I accelerated along the straight road and wasn’t aware of a Pajero 4WD  in my lane suddenly slowing down. Probably the driver was stopping by for God knows the reason why .

I hit on the brake when I saw the 4WD, but I realised it was too late before I would hit the 4WD with my driving speed. In that split second, I swerved to the left side of the road hoping I could stop at the green area. Apparently I was a bit too fast, my car moved forward and knocked the lamp post and stopped. If not for the lamp post, I would end up in the roadside drain.

I came out and inspected my car. Oh shit, the damage to car was quite serious. The front skirt came off and flew few metres away from the car. The left tyre burst, the radiator wreaked together with the both front lamps. The front part of the car was smashed in and down, I couldn’t even lift the hood up. I couldn’t call anyone with my mobile phone because its battery was dead, so I just stood there until a car stopped by and it turned out the guy was from a repair workshop. Cut the story short, he sent me back home with his car and asked his workshop to tow my car away.

I must thank the unseen, invisible divine forces for protecting me and keeping me alive. This is the 2nd time I involved in a considerably serious, which could be a fatal, life threatening accident but I escaped with not a single scratch this time. My previous accident happened when I was working in Puchong, Selangor where I was knocked down in my motorbike by a lorry. I narrated the incident here, complete with diagrams and everything

I was involved in a messy affair early of this month, which the person threatened to harm me for some misunderstanding and paranoia on his part, then I had problem with my eyes, my phone dropped and damaged to the extent it is still working poorly but somehow bearable, something happened back home where a member of the family disappointed me again with his actions, my blog was down and I screwed up during the simple upgrade to the blog platform, which wiped out most of the uploaded data for the past few months. Before my accident last night, I went to withdraw some money and while I  checked the balance for my another bank using the ATM card, it was suddenly swallowed by the machine. I am emotionally exhausted with my personal relationship, where some complications appearing at some point.

Despite all this, I am glad I am still taking it all in a stride and just shrugged it off and just assumed that bad luck demon is making its visit. Just bear with me with my whiny posts, status updates and tweets for the time being. I’m grateful to have good people around me taking care of me and offering helps when I need them and for that I say thanks!

Life will be definitely better after this. When you hit rock bottom, there’s no other way but to go up, right?  This is just a phase that I need to overcome in order to appreciate good things in life better. Wish my the best and all the lucks please Off to sleep now, you guys take care!

ps: Thanks to many friends who called and sent messages, dropping comments asking me of my situation when they received the news. I’m good and hey here I am writingsomething for you guys to read hehe…

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Silverchair aka Kerusi Perak – Suicidal Dream, Stomp the frog!

If you are thinking I am going to write about politics just by reading the title, you are wrong..

I am walking down the memory lane! Friends and I were talking about ehem.. how it is a suicidal move for any component party from BN to accept any of the toads.. then suddenly of to talking about suicidal dreams..

Suicidal Dream by Silverchair

I dream about, how it’s going to end,
Approaching me quickly,
Leaving a life of fear,
I only want my mind to be clear,
People, making fun of me,
For no reason but jealousy,
I fantasise about my death,
I’ll kill myself from holding my breath,

My suicidal dream,
Voices telling me what to do,
My suicidal dream,
I’m sure you will get yours too,

Help me, comfort me,
Stop me from feeling what I’m feeling now,
The rope is here,
Now I’ll find a use,
I’ll kill myself,
I’ll put my head in a noose,

My suicidal dream,
Voices telling me what to do,
My suicidal dream,
I’m sure you will get yours too,

Dreamin’ about my death, dream,
Suicidal, suicidal, suicidal dream,
I’m suicidal,
Suicidal dream.

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1st time intoxicated & stolen guide on how to make your own ‘tuak’

Today I am going to walk down the memory lane, again. I am going to share my 1st time intoxicated experience.

It happened when I was 10. Yes, you read that correctly. I was still a minor. No, I didn’t slip into any bar/club or joints selling alcoholic beverages. It happened at a longhouse, during Gawai festival. When I was a kid, I stayed at this place called ‘Jalan Hua Tai’ in Sarikei and many of the adjoining neighbours are of Iban etnicity. At that time, I knew jack shit about Iban language or customs and prior to that, I had never been to a longhouse.

The neighbours were friendly folks. I learned to speak Iban language from them, especially from this two big sisters, staying few rows from my place. That’s how I learnt to converse in Iban language, from them and other Iban friends staying nearby. After ‘mastering’ the language, I used it to impress Iban girls. Muahahaha!

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Goodbye 2008! Roll up, broken resolutions and being reflective

This year I am going to write a summary of my year, taking a cue from michaelooi.net because I think it is a good way to gauge where you stand at the end of the year. It is time to being reflective and look back at what we have accomplished (and not) for the year.  I am intended to do this every year in the future starting from this post.

Reflective (Source: Flickr)

Resolutions are meant to be broken, that’s what pessimists some people say, but by having a list of ‘things to do’ and ‘marking yourself’ when the time comes, you’ll be able to benchmark yourself, against your previous self. Kinda stupid, no? But stupid things we love do, every now and then.

If you are able to plot your life on a graph, you’ll see if you are sinking fast to the bottom, maintaining a straight line, or for the best – going uphill. But, why many of us wait to reflect on our life only at the end of every year? We should do it every second, minute, and day or at every opportunity that we have. Looking back and retrace your steps, the act does wonders.

So, year 2008. How has it been for me? Fantastic? Mundane? Alright? So so? I guess it was not a bad year, compared to the year before (2007). I didn’t write any resolution for 2008, but I did in 2007.

2007, I was in a mess. By the end of the year, I still grappling with my life, so I decided to put everything on track in 2008 – the reason I didn’t write any resolution coming into 2008. I never wrapped up those resolutions I made in 2007, so perhaps it’s due time to have a peek and see how badly I fared?

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