The Flaccid Mind

Confronting my devil

I am a sarcastic person. I would be overly sarcastic when I am pissed off. Believe me, you don’t want to be on the receiving end when I am in that mode. At that moment, I would forget all my manners. Generally I think I am quite a good mannered person and you seldom see me get angry over things. Yes, I am not that angry person as you imagine by reading stuffs written by me in this blog. I am actually a very easy going person, I love plants and animals, I hug trees.. hahaha!

I would not hesitate to say things I should not say even to people that I love and respect. I tend to say the meanest things when I am angry. Personally I think it is more less hurtful to be told off directly than sarcastically, so the things I would say at that time are more hurting. Most of the time, I regretted what I said after I cooled down and evaluated my actions. More than not, I swallowed my egotastical pride and  apologised.

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I got my Wordpress.com blog back! YoohooooO!!

I am freaking estatic! I am so farking happy!

The reason is… I got my Wordpress.com blog back!! Yes, you hear that right, my old ‘The Flaccid Mind’ is accessible again! Little walk down the memory lane for you that doesn’t know the story. I started blogging in Friendster, then ventured out to Wordpress.com free blog. Now that I can access the blog again, I found out I wrote a total of 133 posts between August 2006 to November 2007. I was not really that productive at that time. One fine day, when I tried to access the blog, I was shocked to be redirected to a page with a message

“This blog has been archived or suspended for a violation of our Terms of Service.”

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The Kiss..

He missed her for the lost moments they shared…

She longed for the sweet times.. they both enjoyed..

They found solace in each other..

It felt like a dream as he played it in his mind…

He remembered sitting close to her… real close..

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Life as It Is

Life is a roller coaster. Life is a box of chocolates.  Life is full of surprises. You never know what you’re gonna get.

What a rainbow of emotions I was having for the past 2 days. On Monday, a good friend from Johor called me. Her father just passed away, 2 weeks ago. I used to work for her father, doing part time when I was studying in UTM Skudai. Early of this month, she lost her unborn baby in pregnancy. She was at her 34th week of pregnancy, it was just a matter of 1-2 weeks or days more for her to expect her newborn baby. I was lost for words trying to comfort her. Anything that I wanted to say would seem so insufficient and insignificant.

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A confession of a recovering addict

I have a fickle mind. It is a weakness. Sometimes I can’t be sure what I really want. For instance, I will try many shirts and pants before deciding what I want to wear. When I buy something, I will scrutinize and test everything before I decide, or I may end up not buying. Indecisiveness. I think some who knows me well can testify for that.

I am also the person that when I want something, I want it at that time, if possible. I do not like to wait when I can get it/do it and this is another weakness. I always do things hastily and sometimes I didn’t put much thought and consideration when doing it. Spur of the moment thing. Yeah, carpe diem heh? Seize the moment by the balls. For some people it is spontaneous and fun, but after much self evaluations and reflections, there are many things that I regretted doing. If I could turn back time, yes I would change all that. I never talk much about things that I regretted doing, only to people I really close with. Perhaps it is time to share some stories.

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